questions i am thinking about

what is the meaning in/of life?
why do people do the things they do?
how are certain (societally evil) acts justified by people?
is there good and evil? (i'm inclined to believe not)
is love just chemicals?
why is alcohol so popular? why do i drink it? why do i continue drinking it?
can i just troll? like can i just troll life? why do i need to tick boxes or get a girlfriend or whatever? who's keeping track.
how can we really treat mental health problems?
what will be the most important values/skills in the future?
why do i really dislike labels?
how much pain can i tolerate? (id like to take a version of the pain fabrial test from dune)
how do i find the people who i really want to talk to? also the people who will help me to answer the meaning of life question.
why have i not ever idolized anyone? why hasn't there been anyone i aspire to be like?
why am i so enamoured by love, intimacy?
what can i do now that might be the best decision in hindsight? (intrinsically unanswerable!)
were humans meant to work this hard?
if we didn't have language, would calculus exist?
is gossip ethical? if so, to what extent?
why is friendship deteriorating? why are we all so romantic?
do i want to be immortal?
can i bear to be responsible for another human being?
is the point of philosophy to just hone instincts? in the end, do we all just do things because we feel like it, disregarding all ideologies/philosophies/moralities?
what is inside a black hole?
is there afterlife?
how important is beauty?
if attention/memory are indicators of consciousness and we are losing both rn then are we on the path to becoming less conscious?